Stuff Went Down, Yo

Big things have happened in my life.  Big, big things.

I'll start from the top:  I stopped blogging (and doing much of anything else) because I essentially lost all motivation to do much of anything.  While my anxiety was in check (another story altogether), everything else just didn't seem right and things had to change.  Long story short, I relocated to Portland, Oregon.  It wasn't exactly spur-of-the-moment since I had thought about it for a while, but I didn't know I would be moving so soon.  While I know this won't magically solve all my problems, this will give me time and a new place to put things in perspective and "find out who I really am."  That last bit sounds kind of New-Agey bullcrappish, but it's true, lol.

Saying goodbye to my family, Josh, and his family was the hardest part.  I told myself to be all hard and not to cry, only to end up breaking down and sobbing like Lucille Ball in McGhee Tyson Airport while my mom and sister cried alongside.  Flying freaks me out, but I made all my connections and landed safe and sound in the City of Roses, thanks to my Heavenly Father.

The second hardest part was having to leave my Chirpy Bird, Josh.  He held me and told me that he would miss me and wished me the best, and that we didn't know what the future could still have in store for us as a couple.  We're still besties, and he's doing a good job taking care of the house.  We're both going to concentrate on school and our writing, but we'll be thousands of miles apart.

The third hardest thing about moving across the country was packing all of my stuff into boxes.  It's not as easy as it sounds, even if you had less than you thought.  My things will be shipped out to me, but it's still kind of annoying to be wanting to read a certain book or put my knick-knacks back up and not have them yet.  But at least I have things to be shipped out.  And I brought my cross-stitch stuff, my iPod, and my laptop.  So, YAY!

It's not like I'm going to be sitting in the house all the time, though.  I've only seen a small part of the city and I'm already hopelessly in love with it.  There's more antique shops than I've ever seen in my life.  Lots of other shops, lounges, and places to eat, too.  All within walking distance!  I've been pleasantly overwhelmed, but I'm slowly getting used to it all.

And yes, this means I'm going to start blogging again.  I might even bring back my Tumblr!  HUZZAH!